After so much betrayals and lies.
would you ever still believe in the good of people?
what would your measure of genuinely be then now?

You know, the kind of feeling,
where you got betrayed so many times,
where you've been told so many lies at,
and you just don't know how to feel.
and you just don't know what else to do?
This.is.the.exact.feeling.
Life's like a movie.
Wait, more than a movie.
At least movie's got a tinge of reality.
This, nothing. So surreal.

this is tearing me apart.
i hate this sense of guilt.
i hate this sense of frustration.
i hate this whole issue.
i should be alone, alone.

Pretty annoyed.
People that I can't click with,
I can never come to a consensus with them.

Had enough of these stupid emotions.
all these annoying and feeling disappointed and guilty-for-nothing feelings,
I just want to liberate myself,
head somewhere nice,
delude myself in some fantasy or tranquility.
swimming does in part have that effect on me.
So, I shall swim really soon.
Just 2 more weeks this shit is going to end.
Goodnight people of the earth.

you broke my trust for you,
you earn it back slowly.
this much of trust I had in you,
gone, gone.

While the others have got their books¬es,
I'm gonna use my brains for the exams!
LIKEABOSS, HELL YEAH~

Almost teared when mummy came home.
On the verge of breaking down, and I was hoping
that mum would come back tonight.
Seeing her, hearing her voice would make me pick myself up again!
and she really did came back!
this is so damn tiring,
and it's not as if I studied massively,
but the stress, the routine, the content,
Is killing me slowly but surely.
I am drained, period.