I need a parachute /;
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Crushed /;
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
this just a lil too much to bear /;
Sunday, March 21, 2010
I'm in the midst of my drama rehearsal now.
yes, not home yet. Been here since 430pm.
This march holidays is packed packed packed.
Come to think of it, i have no idea why i got myself so involved.
Due to my m'sia sports trip, i missed service, youth conf & zone meeting.
Now with my drama rehearsals every single night,
i just missed my dearest cookies gathering tonight at ChompChomp+movie.
i want to cry now.
Pre U Sem, Cellgroup's responsiility, School work, Easter drama,
and my personal life ( family + catch up with friends+ lone time ).
Me have no idea how to handle and juggle all these.
On some random days, i actually feel very very lonely.
And on other days, i actually feel happy coz i'm numbing all the hurts.
i need a break, maybe just alone with myself on an island.
i am feeling overwhelmed. just a lil too overwhelmed by everything.
I want to cry my eyes out, coz there's school tmr.
all im looking forward to is ms Q's lesson, coz she's my favoritegir/s> teacher.
i hate school more than a hundred percent.
yes, not home yet. Been here since 430pm.
This march holidays is packed packed packed.
Come to think of it, i have no idea why i got myself so involved.
Due to my m'sia sports trip, i missed service, youth conf & zone meeting.
Now with my drama rehearsals every single night,
i just missed my dearest cookies gathering tonight at ChompChomp+movie.
i want to cry now.
Pre U Sem, Cellgroup's responsiility, School work, Easter drama,
and my personal life ( family + catch up with friends+ lone time ).
Me have no idea how to handle and juggle all these.
On some random days, i actually feel very very lonely.
And on other days, i actually feel happy coz i'm numbing all the hurts.
i need a break, maybe just alone with myself on an island.
i am feeling overwhelmed. just a lil too overwhelmed by everything.
I want to cry my eyes out, coz there's school tmr.
all im looking forward to is ms Q's lesson, coz she's my favorite
i hate school more than a hundred percent.
/;
Friday, March 19, 2010
maybe i don't belong,
and i don't ever existed in their eyes.
oh well.
i lead a sad life.
This is enough to kill, I'm dead (on the inside) /;
/;
Monday, March 15, 2010
IT Show finally ended.
This time I almost died.
The crowd's a killer, like a hundred times more than expo's
the new promoters are hardcore commission-driven i tell you.
thank God for being a senior, and i get higher basic pay ((:
heh heh.
serious fatigue attack.
tomorrow, got to reach school by 7, then head off to M'sia for Sports Summit
( in other words, supposedly sports training for the a'divisions )
hell tired.
since last friday, i had teambuilding at sentosa from 8am,
then only got home by 12am.
sat and sun, full blast 10am - 1130pm at suntec it fair.
then coming mon and tues malaysia.
oh my goshhhh, i am going to collapse.
i love my life, NOT.
the power of confession /;
Thursday, March 11, 2010
i am going to fulfill my dream
i need to fulfill my dream
to become a successful lady that i've always visioned in my mind
i have to keep that dream going.
i have to keep that dream alive.
no, no more excuses or reasons for failure to achieve my dream
i have a dream, i will achieve it.
i will work hard towards it.
i will not drown in self-reproach should obstacle come my way.
i will achieve my dream.
i will keep myself strong to achieve my dream.
i will achieve my dream.
this goes out to my lovely girls, sylvia, adela, jaime, fitz, sinne, sheena.
you can achieve your dream!
keep on keeping on!
/;
Saturday, March 06, 2010
i need a breather.
this is too much for me to take.
maybe i should go take a stroll at the beach tomorrow alone.
but then again it'll be flooded with families and happy people.
sigh.
why is life like that.
why do people have emotions.
i really wished that sometimes its best for humans not to be able feel
sigh.
me.need.a.breather.period.
the only thing that i'm looking forward to would be tomorrow's service.
i'm sure it'll make me feel better.
/;
{i miss you so much, it hurts.}
[absolutely random] -
i think policemen are cute.i don't know why. hahahaha.
i'm currently on a huge water binge
i can't stop drinking water.
i don't know why. hahahaha.
when i'm feeling happy, i'll picture myself dancing in my head.
and laugh at that particular me in my mind,dancing
i don't know why either.
i'll only cry really really terribly during the night.
for this, i honestly don't know why.
i'll always have really romantic ideas/thoughts on my mind.
heh. i dont know why either again.
