you can never please everyone in your life.

have no idea why do i fall for someone so easily. And I find it annoying.
Coz people don't like me back :(
That's sad right, but then again it prolly would reflect how soft & vulnerable I am on the inside.
I always knew what are the exact things I would say to someone I really love and what are the things I would do for them. But I guess I haven't met one. Not complaining here, but just something for myself, why is it that I can see the good in others, but they don't. food for thought. Bye.

lyrics in the middle of the night
sketches to blow my woes away.
even if it means nothing to you,
I'm showered with euphoria already.

one of those nights where ive decided to spend some time "reading"
yeah, and that means reading blogs & what not online.
and ive always had the same conclusion from these
multiple perspectives and lives that i read on.
one life, live it.

there's so many things i want to do.
and of course, so many things i've never had guts to do.
and now, ive finally decided to kill off hesitation.
but of course, couple with wise decisions.
dozens of romantic antics i want to do.
(and ive yet to find anyone to)
dozens of scary heart dropping adventures
dozens of weird dares that friends would come up with
dozens of events/things to try before you die
so many, too much.
give, love and cherish.
goodnight folks.

dont even understand why am I feeling this way?
Would you feel pricky, if someone you thought you just got closer to, and how that particular someone would prolly be a friend to keep for life, and at an insance, this particular person comes close to that friend, and makes everything seemed so bleak & changed?

"No matter what, just don't give up. Keep working on it. Cause "give up" just don't work."
hehehehehehehehehehehehehehe.

cant keep my hands off tumblr.
why oh why.
need to persevere.
oh God, give me strength.

final two papers on monday and tuesday
im so not feeling the urge to mug for international history.
so dry, and ive no idea where to start.
77 pages of notes to read. Ugh, distasteful.
been lazing my entire way away.

so, things haven't been of much smooth for me
or rather my family in particular.
major, impactful changes are about to happen
well, humans hate change right.
but thats the only constant too. i need to remember that.
prolly half of my plans got to be put off further.
ive got to start fending on my own soon.
coz the burden on my mum is a really huge one,
and it pains me to burden her any further.

meanwhile, ive been passing my days happier.
and i dont know if there's a valid reason to it.
nonetheless, im happy and blessed everyday.
back to my books now.
embrace happiness and cherish, folks.
toodles.

Will never be good enough for anyone.

Got shouted for being immature & asking me to grow up coz I wore sis' clothes.
Now, I just got reprimanded for coughing & not taking care of myself.
Oh great, they call this home?

sdfsxcggfopgtklcvioeno
- a word that totally can't be read yet filled with anger.

been having this feeling that there are friends out there whom secretly dislikes me or hate me.
Oh well, I don't live to please anyone, and I can't and won't please anyone (:
No offense intended. In case you're wondering (but I doubt anyone reads),
I've got the blogger app on my phone! That explains why I'm posting so much more often! ^^

to be honest,
I'm damn nervous about tomorrow's drama assignment presentation.
because I haven't been able to observe anyone for 7days straight, & I don't want to make up anything :(
plus I'm having Prelims on Monday.
Oh gosh, to go or not to go.
I'm really serious about this whole thing, but yet, sigh.
God, help me with this.