and yes, if i could i'll increase the font size of HAPPY to 300.
because i really care for me beloved friends.
for me, my happiness is built on
being tall with my heels (painlessly), shaker fries, baking cupcakes,
buying lingerie, hearing mummy's jokes, doing retarded antics with beloved darlings ❤
its really hard to re-buck up MORE courage to carry on each day.
you try so hard not to think and ignore it,
but at the back of your head, its always there, like permanent.
its no longer a worry/woe/passing dark cloud,
but its something that will probably not change as fast as i want to.
i really hope this feeling, and this problem( or i call it crisis ) will go off.
yes, i don't even know when but hopefully it will go off.
sometimes i feel so helpless, i can just drink Dynamo.
and i am serious.
everything is eating me up. i wished i could shout for help.
