the kind of pain here, is something that no one can ever imagine.
it doesn't only pricks and pierce through,
but it actually cuts right through, and the blade moves to and fro.
that way, the bleeding doesn't stop at all.
coz the blade has never been removed from the heart.
slowly, slowly, one day this heart will cease.

i hate this place.
i want to move away from here.
i want to live with God, because Jesus loves me.
other than him, i've got no idea if i'm even loved by any other human being on earth.
i suck, and i really suck.
i want to be alone and die.