Ooh.

her magnitude of love /;

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

{ not done by me, someone else }
This wall before was all white and blank.
Each set of photo is backed with coloured A4, blue tack-ed to the wall.
.

{143 photos in total}
i do not fathom how guys think, really.

and i think i know /;

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

the countdown to the end of exams starts tomorrow.

language papers to kickstart the heat, whoooooooo.

from 0830 - 0400pm you know!

Ughh, the school is annoying to have NO study breaks.

i'm wishing myself and everyone else taking the paper,

ALL THE BEST FOR EXAMS :D

Sylvia's birthday is approaching, heh.

Happy Birthday in advance lovely tall girl, love you lots! (:

Marisa's birthday right after sylvia's.

if mary is reading this, here's wishing you happy birthday in advance tooo.

can we go out and celebrate together after my exams? (:

i really miss miss miss you, and you're not forgotten.

i think i secretly admire and get envious people's wonderful social life :\

i wished for more freedom and more happiness to fall upon me.

i've always wanted ___ /;

Saturday, September 26, 2009

i was insanely desperately down and useless yesterday.

i only managed to keep my cool for a while,

but then i went insane. thank God for lovely friends to cheer me up (:

sob sob, my contacts are all gonee. damn.

i seriously can't wait to cross the hurdle of my life at this point of time.

i really want to get over and done with exams,

and then i'll have the hell of my life (:

winkwinks* so many people to meet after exams, can't wait!

I LOVE STUDYING. YES I LOVE STUDYING.

BECAUSE STUDYING ALLOWS ME TO SHOP GUILT-FREE.LY

my self-ground failed.

HAHAHAHAHAHAH.

my anti-facebook, anti-blogger. anti-twitter failed.

the cyberworld is just too much of my life.

(Y)

I LOST MY PHONE.

msn/email/facebook/tweet me your numbers.

( for non-millennia friends only )

thank you very much.

discipline myself /;

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

my two bestfriends are at Bangkok, while i'm slogging my ass here.

me is jealous times a zillion :\

reminder to self /;

Things to buy (URGENT)

1. Cereal

2. Yoghurt

3. Exam necessities

4. Panadol Extra

looking for special things inside of me /;

i'm having a throbbing headache since i got up, Ughh

i've always been a sucker for headaches, i need a doctor.

its countdown and more countdowns to exams.

the school refuses to give us study break, and lessons still continues.

:\\

And i keep getting missed calls, and those are not identified.

it gives me the really really scary feeling when that happens.

Life's a picture of you everyday combined, have fun folks!

I shouldn't love you, but I want to

I just can't turn away

I shouldn't see you, but I can't look

I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not

Coz I don't know how to make the feeling stop

It getting hard to be around you,

there's so much I cannot say

Do you want me to hide my feelings and look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not

Coz I don't know how to make the feeling stop

jelly makes me happy /;

i finally found something,

something that makes me smile ((:

i love my raspberry jelly that i made.

take, take, take me away /;

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

I AM AN OFFICIAL NERD TILL 9TH OCT!
the thought of Promotional Examinations is making me puke.

the pressure and stress level is at its best.

its a make-or-break period for me.

And i'm already planning what to do AFTER exams.

i am such a retarded moron, i know *grins*

first thing right after exams would be back to

my lovely CUPCAKES!

i'm heavily in (cupcake) debt. 3 batches of orders,

and 2 batches of samplers. Heh. i'm so dead :D

So please, give me a hint
So please, give me a lesson on how to steal, steal a heart
As fast as you stole mine, as you stole mine

its been the longest time i've been stuck to this song (:

the one that rejoiced when i drank 1 drop of milk /;

Monday, September 21, 2009

you were the one who taught me not to lie.

( and i had to made several promises to you for that )

you were the one who taught me not to hurt others.

( and you won't even kill a fly for me, coz you would catch and let it go )

you were the one who taught me values in life

( and you are the one that portrayed them all in yourself )

But Now,

You lied.

You hurt others ( moreover its someone you loved before )

You have betrayed ALL your values in life.

You no longer portray any virtues in yourself.

I am hurt by your actions towards the one you (used to?) love.

and I am very hurt that you denied all of the above.

What happened to you?

I'm putting my faith in you, and i believe you will stay strong to your beliefs.

Doubt every doubt, believe every belief.

ain't no sunshine when she's gone /;

mother can't stop her nags at me for shopping online,

coz i told her i've got not enough time in a day. Ugh.

the new phone frenzy doesn't stop in anyways too. Ugh.

sunshine seemed to cease shining already.

haze has driven in and its staying.

booooo.

Oh, and a friend texted at 0606AM asking me "Where are you".

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

why have you become so hurtful towards others :\

loser may end up as winners /;

Sunday, September 20, 2009

( total amount of houses and hotels )

{ all property were bought }

{ houses and hotels, you name it! }

my mugging session was terrorised by

wii , pizza , hotdogs, and monopoly! (ftw!)

at least i was happpy, HEEEEEEE.

*i'm crossing my fingers that things for my beloved ones will go on fine*

it was never easy /;

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Monogamy is not only a decision,

but its a conviction and a commitment.

A man whom i respect and love most, proved me wrong.

i thought he was a man who stood firm to his beliefs&principles,

but he totally proved me wrong.

i am so very disappointed.

Is there anyone to show me that monogamy really exist?

secrets are never good /;

knowing someone's secret is never a privillege.

and it'll be worse when you've got 2 person's secrets of each other.

and you can't tell X what Y said/feel

and you can't tell Y what X said/feel

But you yourself knows the whole picture of X + Y

Sigh.

i'm in real pain.

it hurts me to see X being hurt by Y,

and i'm being hurt by how Y can actually hurt X.

attempts to fathom love /;

Friday, September 18, 2009

brother's grifriend is extremely sweet.

she's sitting at my living, waiting for my brother to come back.

and out of the blue,she preapred a cd and a mini note for him (:

my brother will surely melt later. its no occasion, just an action of love.

but, he's been coming home around 2+/3am these days! :\\

{ he's been working his ass off really hard! }

7+ years of love and still counting. i salute them, really.

and for me,

my audition was so nerve-wrecking today.

i literally trembled in fear and almost froze to death.

i'm glad that i enjoyed myself and i'm praying that i'll get nods.

okay, i am going to kiss my books every single day from now on.

coz i know i am going to relax&enjoy big time after exams.

i apologize for wanting to live alone and die.

shut up and let me go /;

Thursday, September 17, 2009

the kind of pain here, is something that no one can ever imagine.
it doesn't only pricks and pierce through,
but it actually cuts right through, and the blade moves to and fro.
that way, the bleeding doesn't stop at all.
coz the blade has never been removed from the heart.
slowly, slowly, one day this heart will cease.

i hate this place.
i want to move away from here.
i want to live with God, because Jesus loves me.
other than him, i've got no idea if i'm even loved by any other human being on earth.
i suck, and i really suck.
i want to be alone and die.

prancing around paper and ink /;

since 8pm, i've been peeing every 30minutes.
coz water keeps me alive in the night. HAH.
i'm not intending to sleep tonight,to finish up my work
and i'll be eating my "early" breakfast at 3am (:
i'm gonna laugh at myself if i fall asleep during lectures tmr :D

i am so bored with my handwriting, and i'm in desperate need
to do something really exciting :\
maybe i'll do some boxing later!

PS: this post is totally redundant coz i'm like talking to myself.

standing ovation /;

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

3000 cds (autographed ) were returned at the building's door today,

and it has been going on since last week.

i don't understand how J Y P can sit back and do nothing about these.

the authorities who revoked J should first understand the culture of the States,

before judging him and his actions.

I truly feel for J.

" do you wanna go back to Korea?"

"Yes..but I'm not sure."

SIGH :\

loud car squeaks scares me /;

i officially found my new love - frozen yoghurt.
i crave for them in the day, in the noon, in the night.
and its fat freee, what more bundles of joy can it offer hurr.
and my new love shall accompany me throughout my mugging day and nights,
and see me through my tears and joy.
now i sound really as if i'm dating frozen yoghurt! D:

I AM A MUGGER KID, YO.

sometimes when you try so hard to make something right,
it doesn't get any better, but it worsens. and that sucks.
when you thought being sad yourself is the worst thing on earth,
think again.

food makes people happy /;

Monday, September 14, 2009

(saturday's joy)

and we are happy to be javs,

and we're happy with our icecream on top of our bloated stomachs.

I finally remembered why Tom's P was named after Tom!!

Saturday, September 12, 2009

awesome JAVS steamboat today,

and icecream @ Tom's P for dessert ((:

{photos tomorrow, i'm really tired}

sloth had taken over me fully.

i need to study.i must frigging study.

Ughhh.

madness in progress /;

fondue party and dance was fabulous last night.

it got us all laughing much.

everyone enjoyed themselves and left with smiling faces((:

HAHAHAHAHA. HEH.

we got too impatient, and starting dumping MOST of the fruits IN.

The video for our failed nobody dance will be up on fb tmr!

Stay tuned. HAHAHAHAHA.

have you ever /;

Thursday, September 10, 2009

have you ever felt so empty and lonely before?

have you ever felt so small in front of others before

have you ever felt like you've got thousands of friends,

yet none you can actually talk to?

have you ever felt like you've love somebody so hard, that the other party don't even feel it?

have you ever been so sad that you cried till you almost killed yourself?

have you ever been all alone with no one around before?

have you ever felt so empty and lonely before?

have you ever felt like the world would be a better place without you?

well, a creature that morphed into a human have felt all of that before.

if today was your last day /;

yay, i had real fun last night,

coz i feasted and partied ( in a way )!

and i'm partying tonight again at my Balcony.

HAHAHAHAHAH.

i'm going to be a happy girl sooon.

3 cheers for my please!

my imaginary friend forever /;

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

why do chocolates work for others,

but not me.

why does everyone have their happy pill,

but not me.

this girl has been struggling to work those cheek muscles,

to pull out a smile.

how do you sleep /;

Tuesday, September 08, 2009

today was awesome-ly spent,

coz i studied,

coz i had fun,

coz i laughed,

and i smiled (:

{ photos are with Aishah! }

Mega thanks to lovely f, nonsense j, entertaining d and lost a ((:

only by the night /;

i think about all the sad memories and events that happened.

cause i always believe that misery lasts longer than euphoria

i miss this arianne and chloe girl.

i miss this little qiao-en girl.

i miss this lil miss chubby miracle.

i miss the bball girls clique.

i miss this fair lingwei lady

i miss marisa the prettaye.

i miss jaymee the hillarious.

i miss oovoo-ing with the crazy boys.

i miss this ms-taurus.

i miss the dare-or-dare clique.

i miss ms-tall-and-pretty.

i miss dannyboy, that long hand-ed nonsense.

i miss this silly rambutan.

And fbook is under site maintenance,

what a let down :/

PS: all my friends are way prettier than me, i lead a sad life :\