And, it's 2016 already.
Reading back the old posts makes me realise how vulnerable and emotional I've been past years.
I guess not much have changed since. HAHA.

So.. i meet this amazing guy and im so smitten that i need halppp.

Sometimes you make me feel like it's all good.
Then you awaken my doubts.
Sometimes you make me feel like I'm a complete loser,
Then you make me feel whole again.

Nonetheless, I'll play.
Play on the hot and cold game.
Coz no harm trying. And it's you I'm talking about.

amazing monday night spent with you.
Saw our Polaroid in your wallet.
Whatever the reason is, at least I'm there.
went town to shop for your clothes.
so much smiles and laughs, but never enough.
The way I fold your sleeves, the way I fold your hems
The way we laugh, I'm more than contented.
I can't get enough, never get enough of you.
You waited with me for my bus, & I wished my bus didn't come :P
I'm happy with us like that.
Just the company and comfort with each other.
Though I wished we'll grow from goodbye hugs, to something else.

It's like I'm on a high,
a high that lasts forever~
(:

And its been more than amazing, how the year 2013 ended for me.

I need someone that would hear me out patiently.
I need someone that would entertain my grunts, no matter how irritating is it.
I need someone that won't grown when I say no to sex.
I need someone who is there to help with good advices in times of need.
I need someone who handles things with a logical mind.
I need someone, who genuinely cares.

When I thought I was having a jubilant day,
on a Vesak holiday,
left the house before the sun comes out.
took the sat, three hours & forty five minutes mind you.
Rushed down for mother's day lunch.
Shopped with dearest bro + wife & sis.
Came home.
This is where gloom started.
Opened the letterbox, saw the letter from my dream U.
Half hearted,contemplating if I should even open.
But I told myself, it's nothing, wont be what I expected to see
But yet, inside I've been hoping
I tore open the envelope
& to read the word "sorry"
My heart sank.
And I think my world just died.
I took the sat exam just this morning.
Was fugging happy that I'm done with it.
Now you're telling me "sorry" when you havent even received my sat results?!
I am crying now.
private is so fugging expensive.
where do I get the $$ from.
I néed divine intervention.
This thin faith,
guide me through.

When I thought I was having a jubilant day,
on a Vesak holiday,
left the house before the sun comes out.
took the sat, three hours & forty five minutes mind you.
Rushed down for mother's day lunch.
Shopped with dearest bro + wife & sis.
Came home.
This is where gloom started.
Opened the letterbox, saw the letter from my dream U.
Half hearted,contemplating if I should even open.
But I told myself, it's nothing, wont be what I expected to see
But yet, inside I've been hoping
I tore open the envelope
& to read the word "sorry"
My heart sank.
And I think my world just died.
I took the sat exam just this morning.
Was fugging happy that I'm done with it.
Now you're telling me "sorry" when you havent even received my sat results?!
I am crying now.
private is so fugging expensive.
where do I get the $$ from.
I néed divine intervention.
This thin faith,
guide me through.

I've got so much to accomplish and achieve.
I wanna drive so damn badly, but so what if I've got license.
I need a car too. And that sucks.
To buy a car in this city, it's bullshit.
The amount is horrendously dear.
I want to go to exotic and ugly places with the one I love.
Places I call vintage in this small city.
I want to drive around and explore this city! The urge is enough to drive me insane.
Time, money, and hesitations are the only barriers to all the above.
I want to pick up guitar. To be able to strum in the middle of the night.
Writing songs of my own story.
I want to open my own cafe.
Cafe with my freshly baked cupcakes, with pretty lattes, and nice live band.
where I'll get my awesome jacklyn to sing at!
these accomplishments, I will and I must achieve.
One day, I want to show all of you, this very entry.
And say, "look, I have come this far"